Before our second meeting

Gurudev was true to his words; He did indeed respond to my emails every now and then. Initially I would write to him once in a month or two. But gradually over a period of one year or so, the frequency of my writing to him increased. And then, there came a time, when I wrote to him once a week.I realized, I derived a lot of joy, writing to him and then eagerly waiting for him to reply.The feeling is very much the same even today. I check my inbox every hour to see if Master has replied.

My emails to him would mostly contain, the day to day happenings in my life. There were never any personal questions like asking him about where he was or about his travel plans etc. I realized over time that I could write to him about anything and everything without the fear of being judged or ridiculed. I could also write to him about my personal problems, seeking solution or help, but that I never did. I never felt like doing it.

His replies would always make me immensely happy. Gurudev's email would always start with "Loving Pallavi" or "my Loving Pallavi". No one had ever addressed me that way. How wonderful it was!I loved it. His emails would always end with this statement - "Praying for you ". This line really struck me, initially. "Surely, only a Mother can care for her child this way" - I thought. My love and respect for him increased manifold. Here was a person, who had met me only once, for hardly a few minutes. But he would always make me feel that there was much more to it.

Many a times, his emails would ask me to spend time praying and meditating daily. I could never say No to him. So I started making a conscious effort to spend some time everyday, meditating. It wasn't easy, it still isn't in fact. I was new to this. "How does one meditate? What am I supposed to after closing my eyes?" - I wondered. I asked him for a guidance. And the reply came - " Close your eyes and concentrate on your breath".Before, I was never regular with my evening prayer, thanks to my erratic office timings. But gradually, I made it a habit and I came to realize that I actually enjoyed these activities and would try and spend more time doing them. Daily prayer and meditation made me calmer and stable. It helped me beat the stress of a hectic life.

Soon a year had passed by.My longing to meet Gurudev again was increasing with every passing day.
"The first time I met him, I did not even have the faintest idea that he was my Master! And now that I know it for a fact, wont you let me meet him again GOD?!" It took a while, but my prayers were answered. I did meet him the next year in the month of July, just a few days before Guru Purnima.